We cannot delve into the minds of others, we are only allowed as far as they will let us. Does anyone really ever know anyone completely? The complexities of our thought processes are unique to each of us. What we reveal is based on our own individual philosophies of life. I believe the closest that we ever come to really knowing someone is when we let ourselves become vulnerable and brutally honest.

Today as I looked at the drab world outside, my mind began to drift. Now the place it landed was Hilton Head, South Carolina. I miss that place so much! I miss being able to walk down to the beach and sit and watch the ocean, whether it be in the afternoon or in the middle of the night at 3 am. I miss sitting outside at the Atlanta Bread Company drinking sweet tea and writing, musing over the lizards that were scampering around nearby. I miss going to the tiki bar after getting out of work and listening to a guy who played acoustic guitar and sang cover songs. I miss the people I met there who are fading slowly into the background. I remember the night we all decided to go swimming in our clothes in the pool in our apartment complex. It was 3 am and our heads were swimming with intoxication and it seemed like a good idea at the time, until security came and made us get out. Funny thing being that the security guard is who everyone bought their pot from, so we didn't really get into too much trouble. I miss the quiet nights too, me and my roomate Katie (sweet Oklahoma girl) we'd go sit on the beach at night under the stars and talk about life, dreams, and our aspirations. The stars there were amazing you could actually see the galaxies, this was because we had no street lights. Driving at night could be a trick, but you got used to it. One day I'll go back, I hope it's soon...

*The picture above is the actual pool that we were kicked out of.

Sometimes the things that we fear the most are the things that will haunt us for the rest of our lives if we never come to experience them. How do we overcome if not by experience? Isn't that one of our major goals in life, to overcome our fears? It could be a fear of love, a fear of being hurt, a fear of the dark, of monsters, a fear of being alone. We all have our cache of personalized fears. I truly believe that we all want to overcome these things, so what is it that holds us back? What binds us to our fears? What keeps us from experiencing all life has to offer? The answer is inside of us, we just need to become seekers once again and to defrost from the zombies that some of us have become from being overexposed to the media mind fuck.

Last night I spent some time with two friends and we had a very relaxed and interesting conversation about God and religion. The reason this is so great is that so many times people have conversations like this and they walk away angry, upset, and mentally drained. Reason being that so many people are close minded and they feel the need to shove their beliefs and convictions down your throat so that they can make you choke on them. And that you should realize how wrong you are for believing what you believe. They feel they are the only one who is right and you are oh so dumb for being so blind. What ever happened to being objective? What's wrong with all the people who are like that?

Have you given up? Have you lost all your faith? Do you finally accept the fate, the fate that there is not a person out there in the universe, that will have all of the qualities that you seek? I encourage you to always hope and to keep looking up. Happiness is not found by being stuck with someone because you assume that you'll never do better and that it's better to have someone even if they make you miserable. The one that you seek is out there somewhere, waiting for you as you are waiting for them.