Have you given up? Have you lost all your faith? Do you finally accept the fate, the fate that there is not a person out there in the universe, that will have all of the qualities that you seek? I encourage you to always hope and to keep looking up. Happiness is not found by being stuck with someone because you assume that you'll never do better and that it's better to have someone even if they make you miserable. The one that you seek is out there somewhere, waiting for you as you are waiting for them.